Broken Pieces

Today has been a tough day for me.  I deal with depression.... and it's been a month since I lost my beloved cat, and today I'm feeling lost.   So what do we do as christians when we are feeling lost??  We're not supposed to ever feel lost, right???   These are the tough things that they just don't want to talk about at church.  Loss and depression are just topics that everyone likes to stay away from.  It's hard to stay away from them from you're living them.  

I made a commitment many years ago to follow Christ.  Because I know it pays to follow Christ.  The problem here on earth is that we are plagued with these things called "feelings"... they can be good..and they can be bad...but they can also be misleading.... letting our feelings guide us often takes us places we really didn't want to go..... Satan often uses feelings to send us on a path that leads away from God....

Commitment means that I follow Christ....no matter what.  Period.  Doesn't matter how I feel, how the weather is, how my life is... I choose to follow him even when it doesn't feel good...even when I'm not feeling loved...even when I'm feeling alone.... 

As long as we are on this earth we will have "feelings".... someday, in heaven, we will see things so much more clearly..... there won't be a need for feelings of sadness or depression.... it will be joy and worshipping... I will eagerly await that day...but for now I am just walking in faith today that God is in control... that tomorrow is a new day... 

 

  and that he is always faithful.... and his Word.... is always true....

          No matter how I feel.